II

The sun sets down the far end
Of that old County Road 5
I hear gravel spit and settle
Your tailgate turns into the drive
My heart still starts like always
Every time that you climb out
Still don’t know what I did right
Forever selfish and devout

I plate your favorite dinner
With the radio humming low
You kiss my shoulder lightly
Where the floorboards dip and moan
I pull you down the hallway
You say “I should start the chores”
But you melt when I touch you
And I make you ask for more

Later when the heat is spent
And the house glows in the dark
You stare into that corner
Where the light won’t leave a mark
There’s a name you never mention
But it’s living in your eyes
And I feel you slip right through me
Like a ghost that’s still alive

So you drown in holy water
For a hurt you can’t undo 
And I sink behind you, grasping
Cause what this broke is still breaking you
A test without an answer
I have come to understand
I will never make you choose
To her I give your hand

So I’ll fold up that small daydream
Where you stay and love me back
I’ll move softly through the evenings
Keeping silent in your tracks
We’ll wear down all the good years
Like a ring you’ll never touch
And I’ll die here slow beside you
Loving one who loved too much